I ask this because it’s past 2am and I’m still here. I’ve spent the last 4 or 5 hours reading other blogs to collect opinions that might lead to a new post. Tonight isn’t an oddity. I’ve been doing the same kind of thing ever since I created this site almost two weeks ago.
I’m not too worried about the addiction part because I have lots & lots of free time on my hands and I enjoy doing it. I also enjoy the comments (as few as they are), and no matter the feedback, positive or negative, I enjoy the different perspectives that people have and feel good about the sense of personal growth and enlightenment that comes with it.
Should I be worried about not being too worried.? I must confess I have had lots of experience with many different illegal substances, so I know how people can become addicted without realizing it. Whenever I have doubts about what I’m doing, I usually just stop for a while, evaluate my perspective, and then determine if I should continue.
In the case of blogging, however, I am always evaluating my perspective, examining my motives and beliefs. If I knew for sure that it was addictive, that would make me want to stop for a while and possibly give it up completely. The problem is, anything can become an obsession, which is fine to me. I’ve been obsessive about a number of things. Over the years I’ve had a few friends who’ve told me I think too much. In only a couple of cases, on specific subjects, I agreed with them. But for the most part, I do not believe you can think too much. I’ve had an obsession about truth for as long as I can remember. I was able to set that obsession aside for short periods of time, usually for physical activities or social engagements, sometimes just for entertainment. But it always comes back. That doesn’t bother me. In fact, I wish more people would be so obsessed. Too little attention is given to truth in my opinion.
But obsession and addiction have similar traits. Addiction means you’ve lost the ability to stop on your own, even in the face of the evidence of harm. So, if you read this and suspect that I might be addicted, please send me a comment to that effect. I would be forever grateful.
I’m posting this because I was about to start a post on my latest subject when I looked at the time and asked myself “Do I need to do this now?”. I answered no to that question and rationalized by adding “But I want to”. I like to keep my blogs short, whenever possible, so I’ll end here and start that post I intended to in the first place.